Re: the freakout, my guess is that blogs are meant to be read by strangers more, and you've exposed a vulernable side of yourself. Not necessarily a bad side, maybe not even one where you can be hurt, but one where, once you've said it, you have little control over the future. You've sent some powerful information out there, worked some powerful magic, and you're not sure what effect it's going to have.

That's exactly what it is, exactly what it feels like. Thank you. I feel like, "I don't know what people are going to do with this - and whatever they do, whether they praise it or ignore it or use it as a stick to beat abortion-seeking women with - they'll be doing it with a piece of my soul."