I am so sorry it's turning out like this. I have some idea of how hard it is, ish, I think.
In your position, I think I would - yes, even having gone through what happened - opt for an early induction as a first option, because that way even if you did need an "emergency" c-section in the end you could schedule the induction for when you have the right anaesthetist available, eliminating the unconsciousness element. That's the bit that would bother me most, I think. It's not something I've had to face, so I'm guessing.
I absolutely promise that you, particularly, can get over any kind of birth that ends up with a healthy baby. You have the tools you need for that. And the loss of The Perfect Birth *is* worthy of grieving over. It really is.
And if you want to talk about it, before or after, I'm listening. I haven't been where you are now, but I did wave goodbye to the perfect birth...
A. Who has been wondering if her Evening Primrose Oil capsules against PMS are the reason her breasts are *this* full of milk. Owie.
Mixed news from the midwife
In your position, I think I would - yes, even having gone through what happened - opt for an early induction as a first option, because that way even if you did need an "emergency" c-section in the end you could schedule the induction for when you have the right anaesthetist available, eliminating the unconsciousness element. That's the bit that would bother me most, I think. It's not something I've had to face, so I'm guessing.
I absolutely promise that you, particularly, can get over any kind of birth that ends up with a healthy baby. You have the tools you need for that. And the loss of The Perfect Birth *is* worthy of grieving over. It really is.
And if you want to talk about it, before or after, I'm listening. I haven't been where you are now, but I did wave goodbye to the perfect birth...
A.
Who has been wondering if her Evening Primrose Oil capsules against PMS are the reason her breasts are *this* full of milk. Owie.