Wow. You'd think that since Colin is my third child, I would understand that moments like these happen and are normal. I even have a much better support network this time than I did with his sisters and those sorts of moments still happen when I get too low on my own resources and am still expected to be and do for everyone else including the baby, especially the baby.

These moments change as the children age, but don't ever completely stop. They'll do something or say something that zeros in like a rapier to hit a hot button you might not even realize you had. You'll do or say or just think something that will haunt you for days, weeks, or longer.

You do the best you can with what you have.
It's what you do when you don't have enough that really matters.
You did just fine.