Just reading what you went through makes me angry on your behalf. I have to say that, while I don't know the details pro or con regarding formula vs. breastfeeding, I know that I was formula fed. I can't say that I've ever felt a lack there. I certainly don't feel wronged or abused or anything like that. My mother and I have a good relationship, I am told that I was a happy baby, I was a healthy kid barring the usual suspects, and I can't think that breast feeding would have altered my circumstances significantly. Alex is clearly happy and healthy and loved and loving, and facilitating that is what makes you the great mother you are.