I'm so sorry to hear about your experiences. I had a similar experience and while I'm fine now (son is 21 mths old)- all's it takes is for me to read something as powerful as this and I am suddenly pushed back in time to when son was born, had jaundice, latch not established, different story from every LC, finally he was on a machine @ home days 3-9 of his life and I pumped every 3 hrs and bottle fed to get his weight up...never latched...felt guilty as hell, cried all the time, and pumped like a maniac. Even tried LLL, what a f'in joke that was- between that fact that a)I would be working FT and b) that I equated pumping w/bf'ing thus thought LLL was a natural place to go for help. I EP'd exclusively for 4m, then mixed bm + formula through month 6, so I really feel your pain.
FTLOG, it's totally noone's business WHAT baby is consuming...unless ironically that would be nothing and then CPS would be @ your door.
OH the judging, I still feel the sting!!! I loved all the "it'll work out". Um, exactly how?!?!
BTW- I was also told to contact this local hospital/university that has a sucking clinic-- where they could determine if it indeed was a latch problem. I mean really. Today could I take him? Hell yeah. Could I have taken him when I was one week PP? Hell no. I couldn't even walk around the block, shower on a daily basis, or eat with any regularity.
Re: Wow...just...wow.
I'm so sorry to hear about your experiences. I had a similar experience and while I'm fine now (son is 21 mths old)- all's it takes is for me to read something as powerful as this and I am suddenly pushed back in time to when son was born, had jaundice, latch not established, different story from every LC, finally he was on a machine @ home days 3-9 of his life and I pumped every 3 hrs and bottle fed to get his weight up...never latched...felt guilty as hell, cried all the time, and pumped like a maniac. Even tried LLL, what a f'in joke that was- between that fact that a)I would be working FT and b) that I equated pumping w/bf'ing thus thought LLL was a natural place to go for help. I EP'd exclusively for 4m, then mixed bm + formula through month 6, so I really feel your pain.
FTLOG, it's totally noone's business WHAT baby is consuming...unless ironically that would be nothing and then CPS would be @ your door.
OH the judging, I still feel the sting!!! I loved all the "it'll work out". Um, exactly how?!?!
BTW- I was also told to contact this local hospital/university that has a sucking clinic-- where they could determine if it indeed was a latch problem. I mean really. Today could I take him? Hell yeah. Could I have taken him when I was one week PP? Hell no. I couldn't even walk around the block, shower on a daily basis, or eat with any regularity.
Sorry for the ramble...Thanks for sharing!
Alison
http://www.alisonandbabyg.blogspot.com