I wonder if looking at this baby and thinking about the loss of the other might not be psychologically a good idea, if it might make you think when he pees all the way down the stairs or fails French in Grade 9 that your perfect neverborn baby wouldn't have done that, if that shadow might come between you and the real person he will be. I think you're too sensible for this, once he's really there and solid in your arms.
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Date: 2009-02-01 12:21 pm (UTC)I wonder if looking at this baby and thinking about the loss of the other might not be psychologically a good idea, if it might make you think when he pees all the way down the stairs or fails French in Grade 9 that your perfect neverborn baby wouldn't have done that, if that shadow might come between you and the real person he will be. I think you're too sensible for this, once he's really there and solid in your arms.