I'm glad you could write about this now. Asides from hormones, which are a huge emotional issue, you've also been facing a lot of life decisions and adaptation--and these are always stressful and a cause of doubting oneself. I guess I'm saying that it seems quite natural to me that you'd be perseverating about your decisions and what others think of them, and in some ways it's just an awful stage to get through.

As far as the mice, I don't know what you have or haven't done, but I highly recommend calling in Orkin or a similar company. Their agents are trained to find and block tiny, tiny little holes to the outside that untrained people can't even see. Then they can use humane traps on the mice inside; but if the holes aren't blocked, more just come in. Anyway, that was our experience when we had a mouse infestation. I love rodents, but not uninvited ones!

Here's hoping the therapy and meds help, too.