Turning the corner.

[rivka]

Better today. Much better. Not entirely well - I still can't take a deep breath, I still tire very easily, and I still cough and gasp a little when it's almost time for a breathing treatment. But for pretty much the first time in ten days, today I felt (1) mentally alert, (2) cheerful, and (3) hungry.

Ravenously hungry, in fact - I told curiousangel I wanted to eat everything in the world, but I settled for going out and getting myself some Mexican food. Going out! Sure, maybe the trip was tiring, but feeling well enough to go out was definitely buoying enough to compensate. More than compensate.

It couldn't have come at a better time. Yesterday afternoon I had an emotional meltdown and cried all over curiousangel - I was feeling lonely and bored and dull and fractious and pathetic and worn out and utterly sick of being sick. I think the precipitating factor for the tears was being reminded that I don't have a dog, if that gives you a sense of how ridiculously on-the-edge I was. He was very loving and reassuring and got me over it, but I honestly don't know how I would've gotten through today if I hadn't been any better.

If my doctor hadn't forbidden it, I'd be planning to go in to the office tomorrow. I think it probably is for the best that I stay home - I can't kid myself that I don't actually need these nebulizer treatments every four hours - but it does feel a bit weird not to push myself back to work immediately. At least maybe tomorrow I can enjoy being home sick, instead of lying limply on the couch unable to read or do needlework.

I can't even begin to express how good this feels. I've been bouncing around (very gently) and grinning my head off and giving curiousangel little kisses all evening. It's just! So! Good! to not feel like I'm at death's door all the time. Even if I do have a little ways to go, yet, before I'm healthy.

Comments

[wcg.livejournal.com]

Thanks be to God. I'm so relieved to know you're getting better now.

[geekchick]

I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. =)

it does feel a bit weird not to push myself back to work immediately

Staying home and resting is definitely the right thing to do tomorrow.

[dandelion-diva.livejournal.com]

I'm *So* glad you're feeling better. Still sending vibes that you feel all the way better asap, but this is *wonderful* news.

You can borrow part of our dog, when we get hir in July/August.:)

Gessi

[porcinea.livejournal.com]

Yeay!

(Keep resting. Even when you feel better, it's still kicking your butt for a while. *coffcoff*)

[minnaleigh.livejournal.com]

*So* glad to hear this! But certainly keep resting so you don't relapse.

Hurrah for being able to enjoy lying on the couch today!

[red-queen.livejournal.com]

Hurrah! Do take it easy about going back to work -- you want this healing to persist and increase, so tend its little flame carefully. Keep breathing!

[therealjae.livejournal.com]

Yay for feeling better! My advice: puzzle out exactly what made it better, so you can DO IT AGAIN. :-)

*kiss*

-J

[rivka.livejournal.com]

Heh. I'm pretty sure that what made it better was nebulizer treatments every four hours, plus days upon days of lying motionless on the couch. Forgive me if I don't want to make a habit of that.

[dedoc.livejournal.com]

It's OK to be gentle with yourself for a few days--you were burning candles at ends you couldn't even see, trying to recover from your illness.

As to cheerful bounces? It's amazing, when one has been dog-sick, just how blissful a LITTLE surcease and ease can make you. Contrast *matters*, somehow...

[ororo.livejournal.com]

*gentle hugs* glad to hear you're on the road to recovery.

Maybe you can find a nice fainting couch where you can drape dramatically if you're too weak and muzzy to do anything else. May as well do it in style. ;)

[ailsaek.livejournal.com]

Hoorah! Hoorah! I hope you continue to mend.

Happy breathing. :)

[saoba.livejournal.com]

Yay! for not at death's door-ness. I've been fretting and sending Good Thinks your way for days.

*hug*

Yay for better -

[persimmon.livejournal.com]

I'm very glad to hear it.

Small query - did they teach you any of the breathing exercises? They can really help - no substitute for the nebulizer sessions, of course, and not intended to be so - but they give you ways in which to help yourself without added medications, and that gives you back at least a little control.