A rush of pure fury

[rivka]

First read this post.

I used to just be sad in the morning, and after 11am I was okay. But in the last two weeks that okay period has been pushed back to 2pm and then to 5pm and now I am not ever okay. My nights are just as bad as my mornings. There isn’t a moment in the day that I look forward to. I don’t see an end to this cycle of stress, and I find myself asking much too often, “Why go on?”

Yesterday I saw a psychiatrist who prescribed me a combination of drugs. I wish that there were other ways that I could go about getting better, but you have to believe me when I say that this is way beyond herbal remedies or dietary changes. I exercise all the time and I have a very healthy diet (except for the pop tarts, but people, a woman needs her pop tarts). This situation is life-threatening. I am afraid of hurting myself. [...]

But there is one terrible drawback to this step I am taking toward sanity. The doctor told me that I have to wean Leta if I want to work up to therapeutic levels of these drugs. I have to stop breastfeeding in the next month.

Then read this response.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Geez. People. It was a particularly timely thing for me to read today because, although it's not pregnancy related, yesterday I finally got up enough nerve to do something about my over 15 years of horrible depression. I was more scared of psychotropics than I was of wanting to die, and it took a really long time to get over that. So today I go get a prescription for antidepressents filled for the first time, and over the next few weeks we'll figure out if they do anything. It is important to take care of yourself, *** **** **!!!!!!

[rivka.livejournal.com]

Go, you! Congratulations for taking this powerful step towards getting better.

[patgreene.livejournal.com]

Good for you. And don't listen to the "all psychiatric drugs are eeeeevil" people.

Good luck with the anti-depressants

[hazelchaz]

Some people very near and dear to me are on anti-depressants of one sort or another. They saved my wife's life. I hope yours work for you.

[jmhm.livejournal.com]

I can't fathom the thought of going through all those years of suffering and then looking at my daughter and realizing that what she became is something my depression shaped, which is why I fought off a whole bunch of history and went to a therapist (and for SSRIs).

I'm with the group. Go you.