This is just to say

[rivka]

I'm not doing very well.

I'm crying at work.

Thoughts of miscarriage keep crossing my mind. Not as in, wanting to have one, but as in, how could the baby possibly live through this?

I know that's crazy.

But when the majority of my fellow Americans have given their stamp of approval to the architects of Abu Ghraib, where can I find hope? How can I be a parent in this world?

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[edschweppe.livejournal.com]

Where can you find hope, you ask? Eleven years ago, I saw a United Way poster that really struck a chord for me:

where do we go from here?
humanity is being ravaged by a disease
doctors are powerless against it
pollution is everywhere
men and women die everywhere in senseless ethnic conflicts
homelessness is rampant
people can't read
children are being killed in the streets
the year is 1350
it was the beginning of the Renaissance
they made it
so will we

It won't be easy, and it won't always be fun. But you are a wonderful person, with a wonderful husband and wonderful friends, and you are going to be a wonderful parent, and hope is growing inside you even as I type this. Do not give up on hope.