Besotted.

[rivka]

Someone seems to have accidentally erased my half-written birth story, so y'all are going to have to wait a while longer to hear all the gory (yes, literally) details.

But I did want to say this: I knew that I would love my baby right away, but I didn't have any idea that I would also feel loved by her right away. I thought that we would mostly have a one-way relationship for a while, in which I met her needs and waited for emotional rewards in the future.

No. She loves me with her whole tiny body. When she whimpers and I pick her up, she gets this blissful "Ohhh, Mom!" expression on her face and relaxes in boneless happy sleep. In bed at night, she hauls herself over to my side of the cosleeper so that she can dangle one hand out and touch me. She knows me. She trusts me.

I just never knew it would be that way this early.

We took a nap together this afternoon in the rocking chair, sweet tiny girl curled up in the fetal position on my chest, both of us relaxed and content. She's sleeping in my lap right now, smacking her lips and opening her mouth as if she's dreaming of nursing.

Oh God, I love my baby.

Comments

[elynne.livejournal.com]

Wow... how utterly warm and sweet, like a cozy fluffy blanket. Lovely. :)