I certainly know how this feels, though my miscarriage was not as traumatic as yours was, though it certainly had trauma in its own way.
Anthony would not exist if that first pregnancy had continued. I'd have some other baby, but not my sweet, train obsessed, infuriating, cooking little guy. A real live boy is much more real to me than an abstraction.
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Date: 2009-02-02 02:48 am (UTC)Anthony would not exist if that first pregnancy had continued. I'd have some other baby, but not my sweet, train obsessed, infuriating, cooking little guy. A real live boy is much more real to me than an abstraction.