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[rivka]

I suppose that it's normal to be falling to pieces at this stage of the process, but it's damned annoying.

Once again, I'm having trouble making myself work on the dissertation. No real progress since Sunday. I know that I can do what needs to be done, so it's not the paralyzing self-doubt and fear of negative evaluation that it was before. I just seem to have trouble... collecting myself, I guess. I'm not focusing. Instead of a laser-beam brain, which is what I need, I've got a swarm-of-gnats brain.

Also? Irritable. Not pulling my weight with housework, yet not amassing large piles of academic work in compensation. Perfectly unexceptional amounts of joint pain are making me go all whiny and complainy. I just can't seem to get a grip. curiousangel is being a saint, but I know I must be testing the hell out of his patience. If I can barely live with myself, how can he?

I know what I need to do: set small measurable goals, work on them whether or not I feel like working, give myself small concrete rewards, and just shut up with the whininess. It's not like it's a complex plan. But I just... argh.

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[kalmn.livejournal.com]

set small measurable goals,

yes, very necessary.

work on them whether or not I feel like working,

yes, very necessary.

give myself small concrete rewards,

yes, necessary and helpful.

and just shut up with the whininess.

not necessary until after you're done. you want i should transcribe the "i hate you all, you stupid stupid people" song and send you the words? i suggest not singing it in front of curiousangel, in the interests of future domestic harmony, however.

[ailbhe]

I think I might need this song.

[rmjwell.livejournal.com]

I think dot_cattiness needs this song, too.

[rivka.livejournal.com]

you want i should transcribe the "i hate you all, you stupid stupid people" song and send you the words?

Oh, I *totally* do. Yes. Indeed.

i suggest not singing it in front of curiousangel, in the interests of future domestic harmony, however.

Nothing stupid or hateful about curiousangel, nope. The bad feelings in that direction consist almost entirely of guilt for being such a royal pain in the ass for him to put up with.

Hey, you know, he might like to have those lyrics too...