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Feb. 1st, 2008 09:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rivkaI had to walk down the baby aisle at Rite Aid to get to the pads I need for the bleeding.
I had been doing so well, this morning. Cuddling Alex, making her a special breakfast, pressing my cheek against her hair and reading her stories. I was able to play with her and even laugh. My real live girl. I thought, I'll survive this.
And then there I was in the Rite Aid parking lot, icy rain bucketing down on my bare head, sobbing so hard I couldn't fit my car key in the lock.
I don't think this can possibly be my life.
I'm sorry. This is just going to be an awful journal to read for a while. I honestly won't mind if you don't.
I had been doing so well, this morning. Cuddling Alex, making her a special breakfast, pressing my cheek against her hair and reading her stories. I was able to play with her and even laugh. My real live girl. I thought, I'll survive this.
And then there I was in the Rite Aid parking lot, icy rain bucketing down on my bare head, sobbing so hard I couldn't fit my car key in the lock.
I don't think this can possibly be my life.
I'm sorry. This is just going to be an awful journal to read for a while. I honestly won't mind if you don't.
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Date: 2008-02-01 08:30 pm (UTC)No matter how awful, I will keep reading. It's the only way I have to express my condolences.