Holding pattern.

[rivka]

Still home. Waiting for the midwife to call back.

L&D is apparently totally full. There's a possibility that they'll be able to book time in a regular OR. My symptoms - cramps and bleeding - are worsening, although they're still not worse than a regular period, and I suspect that if they can't get me in on a scheduled basis I'm going to wind up in the ER tonight or tomorrow.

I can't even begin to express how shaken I am by not being able to have the procedure when I thought I would. I'm really scared.

When I last talked to Kathy, around 4pm, she conveyed her opinion that paging her isn't going to help matters any. I know she's trying to line something up for me. I wish she'd keep in better touch, and yet I know that if L&D is completely full she must be slammed with deliveries. The practice is down a midwife right now.

She said that the fact that I'm bleeding and cramping might change the picture. Earlier in the day I had passed on the message that I was bleeding more, but it seems that what was conveyed to her was just more spotting like yesterday.

I really don't want to miscarry this pregnancy on my own. I don't think it's safe. I wish I had a better sense of when it would be time to try the ER of a different hospital.

I wish she would call. Just with an update. Just so I could ask some more questions.

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[patgreene.livejournal.com]

My thoughts exactly.