Breaking radio silence.

[rivka]

I haven't been posting much to my journal recently. Which is weird, because I've been composing journal entries in my head almost every day. In the past week I have meant to post:

- musings on my identity as a therapist.
- a lightheartedly ranting poll about the awfulness of other drivers.
- a geeky ode of fascination to Reproduction Fabrics.
- a bitter rant about medical billing requirements and governmental accusations of billing fraud.
- a sickly furious response to something lizw linked to.
- a return to my "excavation work" series of posts about unrooting the internal effects of a former relationship.

Why haven't any of these made it to the screen? It's probably the last item on the list, holding things up. Nah, scratch "probably" and replace it with "almost certainly."

trinker pointed out that I've been much visited by the past, lately, in memories and dreams and strange coincidences. At the end of last week, once more my ex re-appeared distressingly in my head. I've been resisting thinking about that episode ever since, but somehow it seems to be bottling up other things I'd like to write about. So I guess it needs to be extracted, like a tooth. Argh. I thought I was done.

Maybe now that I've said this out loud I can write about something else in the meantime. I'm not writing about the ex at work.

Quiet afternoon, followed by a frantically busy morning. Must be awake and alert before the evening, because of Great Big Sea.

[Sidenote: When I decided that I needed to make a series of exploratory entries about my previous relationship, because not everyone wants to read about high-trauma stuff, I created a special friends list for the purpose. If you've joined my friends list since then (or you're lurking) and would like to be put on that list, just let me know. I have some journal creation codes I could give out to lurkers.]

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[trinker.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Avoidance isn't usually on my top three list of coping mechanisms, so I'm not sure why it's come up so powerfully here.

Is it just in LJ, or in general? (The avoidance.)

And Reproduction Fabrics is stunning.

Isn't it? And surprisingly cheap - most sites sell reproduction cotton prints for $15/yard and up. I suspect that those companies use more authentic printing techniques. Or maybe it's just that this one is based in Montana, and has no overhead to speak of. At any rate, according to Bill these aren't dramatically more expensive than regular cotton cloth.

I noticed those prices, too. Wow!


I'm thinking of picking period or near-period fabrics for my costume, although I'm leery of selecting something online - not confident enough of the color fidelity. In the 1775-1825 category "Versailles," I like #VS54T best, followed by #VS54G and #VS58G. But I'm not an authenticity Nazi, and I'm also strongly tempted by some fabrics that are later in period: under "Timeless Fabrics," in the "Peace Creek Drygoods" category, the prints called "bramble" and "cornflower." Or the "Robert's Antiques" category, #RA27N. Or... or... or...


As discussed elsewhere, I really like the combination of bramble and cornflower! Later tonight, if my computer cooperates, I'll do some trickery in Illustrator so you can see what the juxtapositions look like.

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[rivka.livejournal.com]

Later tonight, if my computer cooperates, I'll do some trickery in Illustrator so you can see what the juxtapositions look like.

Actually they have a "fabric play station" where you can put together different swatches. All squares, though. I imagine you could do better in Illustrator if you were feeling particularly inspired.

[trinker.livejournal.com]

Heh...the illustration snippets from the Amazon.com samples of that historical dress design book you referred to earlier are whispering that they want to play along with the fabric swatches.

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[rivka.livejournal.com]

Ooooh.